Queen of Awkward Questions™

I just watched the latest Harper's Island episode on On Demand this morning.

AND I BAWLED MY FREAKING EYES OUT.

I started watching this show purely for some gory fun and did NOT expect to actually get attached to any of the characters.

Damn it. Now I'm going to be sad all day.

I know, I know, I announce that I'm pregnant and then I vanish into oblivion. SORRY. I totally suck. The truth is, I've been ridden with constant nausea and utter fatigue for the past couple of weeks, so I don't spend much time at the computer anymore. If I'm not working, I'm sleeping (going to bed around 9pm practically every night these days) or watching reality shows on TV. Real substantial, I KNOW. This heat isn't helping either. The past three days have had a heat index of over 100 and the humidity is just brutal. And on top of all that? The A/C was broken in my car. I've never suffered so much in my life. Luckily, I was finally able to get it fixed today.

Anyway, the loss of appetite and nausea started the day after I got back from L.A. (A vacation that kinda sucked, actually. I sort of hated Los Angeles. It was dirty, vapid, and a little boring. I was scared for my life if we were out after dark, as there was an abundance of creepers roaming the streets. Everything was extremely over priced, and all there was to do was go shopping. Or drinking. And since I can't drink and had barely any money to spend, my options were limited. Honestly, I don't ever want to go back. Five years ago I fell in love was L.A. and now I'm completely turned off by it. It's just not ME anymore. My life is so different and I want such different things. Not to mention, we didn't see a single famous person. ABSURD.) But anyway, back to barfing. Actually, I haven't barfed yet, but I've been on the brink for about two weeks straight. I actually lost seven pounds. I'm really hoping this first trimester flies by, because I can barely take it anymore. I'm just trying to think positively: nauseous is a good thing. It means the baby is healthy and doing fine.

My first appointment was at six weeks and everything went well. My next appointment is at eight weeks, which is on Monday, and I'll get to have my first ultrasound! I'm so excited. I can't wait to meet my little jelly bean.

At this point, I feel like it all hasn't quite sunk in yet. I'm having the symptoms, I'm doing the research, I'm taking the vitamins... but it hasn't hit me yet. Not fully. Right now I'm just taking it day by day, trying to stay healthy, and hoping for the best. That's really all I can do right now.

The Icon Expression Meme

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Summary: Sam is all wrong. It's in his blood. Spoilers up through 4x22.

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(Definitely watch this one in HQ if you hadn't planned on it. I had minor issues with the rendering process (WHAT'S NEW) and pretty much gave up on trying to make it perfect quality.)
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What. the. FUCK.

I have about 20 seconds left of my video, so I open the project... and it's gone. The time line is all empty and screwed up. I use Sony Vegas Movie Studio 8.0. I took a screen cap of the project. The project itself is gone, the audio/video tracks on the left are gone, everything is gone (except the project media for some reason). I'm so fucking confused, pissed, frustrated. Why can't I ever make a vid without horrible technical issues?!

It can't just be gone, right?! There has to be some button to press to get it back. How can it just be gone?

I've googled the problem and can't seem to find anything. I've never seen this before. I mean, how does this even happen?! PLEASE, anyone, if you can help me figure this out, I will give you my first born. Any suggestions/advice? Has anyone had this problem before?

I fixed it! I changed the name on the backup version to the name of the original file, then opened it, and it totally worked. *phew* THANK GOD. I just finished the vid and now it's time for the horribly long rendering process, in which my computer will shut down approximately 57 times. Can't wait! Ugghh.. but at least I was able to finish it.

BY THE WAY: Please reply to my picture taking meme! You can ask me to take a picture of anything. Where I work, my friends/family, favorite food, etc. ANYTHING! I'm hoping for a few more requests before I start it. :)

I'm totally stealing this from the awesome regan117. It sounds like fun, and since I'm a bit of a picture taking freak, this seems like it's right up my alley.

Ask me to take a picture of any aspect of my life that you're interested in - it can be anything from the house I live in, my closet, my favorite stuff, or something completely random in my daily life. Leave your choice here as a comment, and I will reciprocate by taking the pictures and posting them as an LJ entry. That way you get to know a little bit about my life, if you're remotely interested in it.

Go wild, people! I can't wait to do this! :)

... I think I 'ship Dean/Castiel. A LOT.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This Sam video is taking much longer than anticipated. How am I only 1:20 into it?! How is that possible?? *sigh* So much for getting this up before the finale. Oh my god, the FINALE. *continues to lose sleep*

And on a completely different note, here is a lovely poll.

Poll #1398870
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

Which name do you prefer for a girl?

Willow has been "our" name since we pretty much met and were discussing what we would name a daughter if we ever had one. It seemed to be fate. We recently decided on Abigail as the middle name. Now I've gone and fallen in love with the name Grace (which I've loved for a very long time, but always saw it as a middle name) and paired it with my late, beloved grandmother's name, Elaine. And I think it's absolutely adorable. Steve likes it, though he thinks people will confuse it for Gracie Lane. *shrug* I think that's cute, too.

Again, I'm all about jumping the gun here. But hey, we like to be prepared.

Thoughts?

I found this survey on my f-list somewhere, so I decided to take it. After you answer their questions concerning your television watching habits, you are able to take a simple personality test. I wasn't expecting very thurough results, but ended up being shockingly surprised.
This is... me. Almost 100%. The only falsity was the statement that I was a good dancer. YIKES.

I bolded the truest statements.

These people tend to be the "salt of the earth" and are not pretentious. They love nature, animals, and the environment. They appreciate current life experiences for what they are at the moment because they do not worry about the future or other possibilities. They tend to be reserved, shy, quietly friendly, sensitive, and modest about their abilities, which equates to underestimating themselves. They shun disagreements and will not force their opinions or values on others. They enjoy being by themselves more than in large groups. They readily enjoy small groups of friends and appreciate doing things with them. Spontaneous social events or gatherings are preferred over planning events for the near future. They are quite content and non-critical about life and take people as they are. Written communication is preferable to telephone conversations. They are not natural leaders, but are able and loyal followers. They grasp the needs of the moment, reacting quickly and pragmatically to them.

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A Sam vid bunny has just overtaken my brain.

If anyone makes this before I do, I might cry.
AHHHH THIS IS GOING TO BE FUN.

Oh god. Oh god. Oh my f-ing god.

( Supernatural, you are breaking my damn heart )

I've compiled together some Supernatural vid recs that I think you might enjoy.

Carnival of Rust by absrip
HOLY CRAP. This video is pure art. The use of movement, lyrical interpretation, her (as usual)amazing manips, poignant storytelling, and flawless editing make this video a true gem. It's a very effective and powerful view on season 4 so far (from a Wincest angle) and you will want to watch it again and again. The "tarot cards" are such a fabulous and creative touch! You won't be disappointed by this one.

705 by secretlytodream
A beautiful, touching, and emotional AU story where Sam and Dean find themselves in comas and try their hardest to cling to life, and each other. I won't spoil the ending, but this video made me tear up. The song was perfectly chosen (I dare you to get it out of your head) and moved the story along wonderfully. Some of Loki's AU scenes were just so well put together and believable. There is a lot of depth and emotion in this video.

Hear No Evil by my_sn_therapy
CRACK at its finest! This video makes me giggle until my sides hurt. Absolutely genius concept, execution, and voice overs. Spoiler phobes will especially appreciate this one.

Twenty Years by liv_niggle
This is another Wincest video. I'm not a huge Wincest fan, myself, but I can appreciate a true work of art. This video is very powerful and the use of outside footage really intensifies the story. It's a visual masterpiece. It's also quite a dark and compelling look at Wincest, which I find much more believable. This is definitely a video that sticks with you for a while!

The Look of Love by ash48
Oh man, this video is epically awesome and will fill you with warm fuzzies. It's a lovely and semi-cracky bromance vid that perfectly captures the tenderness of their relationship. It really makes you miss the earlier seasons when everything wasn't so darn depressing. I recommend this one to everybody. It will put a permanent smile on your face.

I'm liking Harper's Island. Anyone else watching?

I have a prediction on who the killer is.

( I think it's... )

Anyone else have thoughts on the show?

TEASER:


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This week is apparently "kill Sweetie with TV shows made of awesome!" week.

Dollhouse? Just got great. PRETTY FREAKING GREAT, ACTUALLY.

( Spoilers for Briar Rose )

I couldn't wait to post about how awesomely awesome this episode was, and then I saw the previews for the next two episodes AND I DIED.

*heart explodes*

WELL. My deadline was technically end of July because the paranoid!Sweetie didn't believe she could actually pop out a request video in such a short amount of time. However, one month later (barely) and here it is. My very first Sweet Charity video. As the bidder went under anonymous at the auction, I'm going to assume she'd rather stay anonymous (if that's not the case, just let me know!). But I will say that she gave me a great concept and a wonderful song to work with.

So, without further ado, here is the finished product.



Summary: Without you, what's left to believe in? A slightly AU spin on Sam's life during those three months Dean was dead. Made for "Sweet Charity", 2009.

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Oh, today was a lovely day. I spent the day with my friend Laura from work. We normally have pretty conflicting schedules, so we rarely see each other outside of our job. Luckily, today the stars aligned and we were able to hang out. I have to say, I adore this girl. We get along so well. We decided to take our dogs (my demon dog, Vladimir, and her toy poodle Mannie and mutt Mia) to this little town called Long Grove. It's an old fashioned street with lots of cutesy shops and eateries. We took the dogs to a dog store and I bought a Dachshund picture frame (me=obsessed with picture frames and hanging photos all over the entire house). We also got some chocolate covered strawberries and other goodies. After that, we picked up some sandwiches from a popular deli and took them to a forest preserve type of area to eat.

We totally had a Marley and Me moment. We decided to tie our three dogs to the unsturdy patio table as we ate, thinking, "What harm could three little dogs do?" Only moments later, a dog walked by with its owner and THEY WERE OFF. Can you say embarrassing?! The table tipped over and our food went everywhere. The crochety old lady next to us gave us a dirty look and asked us what was wrong with our dogs. *shakes head sadly* Serves us right, I suppose. But ooh, I wanted to knock that lady over the head with her own cane. Violent!Sweetie is violent.

We were later informed that dogs were not even allowed on the patio area. Oops. So, we gathered what was left of our lunch and took them to a picnic table, safely securing them around a BIG, THICK, STURDY TREE. Much better. We talked about everything and then some for about an hour before leaving.

Next stop? COLD STONE CREAMERY! They had this new flavor called Blueberry Muffin Batter which was amazing. And oh-so-filling. I'm still full and this was hours ago. Sadly, Laura had to go to grooming school, so after ice cream, we parted ways. But honestly, I need to have days like this more often. Most of my friends just want to go out drinking. It was so nice just having a relaxing day with a good friend and our pooches (as much as they were little terrors).

And the day is still not over! I'm meeting some friends up in Wisconsin later for cheap drinks and karaoke. I'm a karaoke FREAK. I'M SERIOUS. I think I have a problem. Some people get addicted to drugs, alcohol, coffee (okay, guilty there as well), but me? KARAOKE FOR THE WIN.

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